This second year of my BLOG, I have decided to really focus on the positive things in my life and celebrate every small victory I have. I know this is something that I said before, but scary as it is, I look at the change from Hospice to Home Health Care to be something that will really help to propel my recovery efforts to a new level, as scared as I am about the change, it also makes me excited. I have begun meditating and praying, for the first few minutes of my days, and as the last thing I do every night. I need to make it automatic, as I have forgotten a couple of times in the past week. I know that I have the love, support, and prayers of a great many of you. Many of whom I have never met. You should know how much it means to me. I’m sure your days are full and that the time you spend reading my daily comments or my weekly BLOG is precious time you could easily use elsewhere in your life. Thank you for accompanying me on this journey. And thank you for so much compassion during the time I wasn’t feeling well. Knowing I was the recipient of so many positive thoughts and prayers, I’m sure helped to hasten my recovery. Just more evidence of the Power of Prayer in your life and the lives of others. I am driven by so many people who are members of the Facebook group. It makes me want to do more every day. I believe that the use of my laptop will help to make my arm stronger. And although I am not a lefty, I think I am getting better, just a little more every day. So much so, I may end up ambidextrous! I’ve got so many things to do right now, but I’m not complaining, I think it’s good for me. It doesn’t leave me any time for feeling sorry for myself. A combination of technology, prayer, and good old-fashioned hard work will help me to realize my goals. Suddenly, I hear the theme song of The Six Million Dollar Man in my head, and a voice saying, “We can rebuild him, we have the technology.” The truth is, I pray for some new discovery coming along (Sooner than later) that will allow doctors to “fix” what is the cause of my paralysis, and render me “normal” once again. The reality is, that the road I’m on is beginning to climb a steep hill, and there won’t be any off-ramps. I’m ready for the challenge, if something comes along that makes the journey easier, so be it, but I’m ready for things to get hard. I’ve psyched myself up, and I have the best people behind me to cheer me on!
I am changing, trying every way I can
I am changing, I’ll be better than I am
But I need a friend, to help me start all over again
Oh, that would be just fine
‘Cause this time I am, this time I am
I am changing, gonna get my life together now
I am changing, yes, I know how
I’m gonna start again, I’m leaving my past behind
I’ll change my life, I’ll make a vow
And nothing’s gonna stop me now
